After spending thursday night with Duncan, FOOLISHLY.
It's weird, but it seems that getting to know him MORE... i feel like im actually getting over him.

He called me up randomly on thursday, invited me over, told me to bring my work stuff and he'd take me in the morning.
I got stupidly pissed, We slept together, yada yada.

But at the same time i felt like i was hanging out with a mate, the attraction just wasnt there like it was before.
Infact.. he became quite UNATTRACTIVE in my eyes. Seeing him drinking all the red wine he drinks, how he smells of wine all the time. The music he listens to. How terribly he sings. I was lying there in his arms the next morning thinking 'Ok.. so affections nice, thats what i lust after with this guy, but the guy is ACTUALLY a jerk with women OBVIOUSLY'.

Realised im not going to degrade myself to his level for affection.
Also realised my mind twisted and over thought the whole idea of him into this wonderous amazing mature man when in reality hes the complete opposite!

Lesson learned; Leesa thinks too much. *nods*

So im going to go out tonight, spend time with my friends, and relax after a long winded mental battle with myself i've had these past few weeks.